#54 Words from A

Wow - a bride-to-be may not be the easiest job, simply because we are expected to plan the usual and perfect a moment that will hold every sacred ounce of love and unity between two people. It is profound.

I see so much love in the air and it is magnificent and truly a universal feeling. Being 2,500+ miles away I am still able witness such a joy - especially the joy of marriage - both directly through my own personal experiences in Seattle and indirectly through my awareness of others' experiences. 

 

Although I have never actually imagined my ideal perfect wedding until meeting Justin, I am certain these imaginations now are reality, and this reality is only a couple of weeks away. I am still having to do the usual duties such as pick out all the perfect items/venues/cupcakes, design announcements, mail announcements, write my vows, fabricate a vintage wedding dress over-the-phone and ultimately manage my pre-wedding emotions. Since I have taken such a unique position as a bride by eloping to a different country, I have had no choice but to become comfortable with the unknown - weather conditions, absence of family, absence of friends, becoming a wife, Canada and everything else in between.

I feel the need to express myself through these words today, because I want to share these raw emotions with others. Swimming in my thoughts, I am able to find strength and support in Justin and especially through the loving words of my mom, my grandmaw, my father and my stepfather. Grateful I am for the nourishment I have received. I have never been so happy. 

I am happy because of my decisions, I am happy for taking care of myself [and Justin], I am happy for true freedom, and most importantly I am happy for the support of others.

                                                                                                                           ~A

A moment of happiness,

you and I sitting on the verandah,

apparently two, but one in soul, you and I.

We feel the flowing water of life here,

you and I, with the garden's beauty

and the birds singing.

The stars will be watching us,

and we will show them

what it is to be a thin crescent moon.

You and I unselfed, will be together,

indifferent to idle speculation, you and I.

The parrots of heaven will be cracking sugar

as we laugh together, you and I.

In one form upon this earth,

and in another form in a timeless sweet land.

                                       -Rumi